I can read the "Books" section of the newspaper again

I don't know why, but it was almost too painful to read the "books" section of the paper when I was just sitting on my manuscript. Now that I am taking action to get published I can once again turn the page on my once favorite section. Today I wrote my name on the top of the section with the caption "star author" below, just for fun and maybe wishful thinking. I also printed my manuscript for the library today too. It was over 300 pages and I ran out of ink! I want to be published so bad....